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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
haiz...my whole day de mood is dampen by the results of english lor...i nv expect so much..but juz a pass...haiz...life juz cant be so perfect on me...juz veri sianz abt it lor...i was so happy to get back most of my result..currently i am so happy to receive the results n i dun even had any Cs lor...but onli the stoopid damn english..i fail lor...it will b great if english is nt compulsory in the stoopid L1R5..den my life will be so much better...or even greater...
today was like quite happy lor in the morning..bcoz i like wan to listen to reg de story ya...indeed i hear the story...we like so happy lor...during the bio lesson...i n lx n the guys talkin all along..but after bio is eng lor...i quite reluctant to go lor...really dun feel like to know..bcoz like gt bu xiang de yu gan..really lor..i fail for eng...HAIZ!!!i did nt cry ..ok?i was quite strong lor..but like really veri veri sad ar...like whole onli me fail sia..but back to class den know is nt onli me la..stil gt kurni..but still like veri sad...i was like controllin my feeling...but the guys like see me so sad den wan to console...den like i wan to cry le...den i close my eyes to stablise me feelin..den i turn the other side...den face sisca dey all...dey oso see me so sad den wan to console..den i feel like cryin den i like call them dun console...haiz..in the end nv cry..i am really veri grateful to all my frenz..i tink i alreadi heart cold le...i dun tink i will pass lor...so now is like tinkin gt so good for the others sub for wat...is like no use le lor...
den i this few days like doin alot of reflection lor...all thanks to nigel..being influences by him...is a good ways to think about it lor..i like tinkin alot...about all those personal tings..haiz..life isnt good lor...dunno how to say...abt it lor...i keep xianin myself like dat...like tinkin my jaw is too long..den like alittle fat..i am too tall..dunno lor..still gt alot lor..haiz
those reflections like oso quite sianz..i like tink comparing when i am sec 1 to now...i seems to change alot...i feel dat i changin to worst..is it...not sure...but i dun feel like myself anymore..i kinda losing control of myself...i wanted to get back..but juz keep losing my grip..i dunno..my mind is in a mess..grades is wat my parents want...i want to poly but oso wan to go jc..but my father want me to be in jc...tinking if i cant get in to jc...what will he feel...will he be disappointed...i dun wan him to be...if go poly i oso dunno wat course really interest me..i wan to study business n oso hotel management...i dunno la..
i juz told my mother that i fail my eng p1..is like nth more to say..is really a FULL STOP..even i score how well for my other subjects..it will be useless...totally useless..frenz console abt i gettin high grades for the others subjects n wat for sad over eng...i understand...it is easy to comfort pple...but when things really happen to u...u will not like dat thin...i dun mind other sub not scorin as high as now...but onli a pass in eng will be veri grateful...
can't be any happier @
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